Oh no, I wrecked it!
I was holding a half-eaten ciabatta roll in my hand only to realize that I had just consumed part of a roast beef and cheese Panini with spicy brown mustard, and was about to take another bite.
How could I just have eaten it and not been aware? What was I thinking? Obviously, not much! The disappointment at not reaching my goal of 1 year without Wheat, Sugar and mostly no Corn was huge. How does one ‘accidentally’ eat something? Especially something so crunchy, yet soft, crisp, yet creamy; all at the same time? How does someone miss that?
And how would I tell all of the people that I’ve told about my project, that I didn’t succeed? That somehow, I had unknowingly eaten a sandwich? Underneath it all, I know that people are curious about my project, but they really don’t care that much if I succeed! But I do!
The disappointment was huge. I can still feel it. That sinking feeling like when you’ve been caught with your hand in the cookie jar. Hot and sweaty.
And then I woke up. Heart racing. Disoriented. Relieved. Thankful that after 4 months, my “No Wheat (flour), No Sugar, and mostly No Corn” Project is still intact!
You may be wondering what I DO eat. I love my vegetables! I focus on getting 7 – 9 vegetables per day. That means I start with vegetables for breakfast in a smoothie and one scoop of high quality protein. For lunch, I either have protein on a big salad, or leftovers from the night before. Dinners are protein with roasted vegetables or another meal focusing on vegetables. There are snacks in between that consist of 1 oz of nuts, a fruit, vegetables, hot-air popcorn and on occasion, 90% dark chocolate.
Yesterday, we had chicken vegetable soup and the rest of the family had ciabatta roll Panini’s. And I really had wanted to taste them!
But really, the memory of last night’s disappointment is enough to keep me on the straight and narrow! Four months and going strong!
